21.12.2013

Hello there :)
I'm home yesterday.
Study week now.
Don't know how to decide when to back Malacca and then heard that 28th got BBQ Party.
Okay done. Don't need to think much.
Back Malacca after 28th :)

See from Facebook that Mei kee them go for dinner yesterday :(
I would had been there too if I told her I'm back. I forgot.

I feel further from Aunty.
We got nothing to chat.
I don't try not to feel bad of her when she did something that doesn't match me.
But I won't show it too la..
Just something become different.
Which I don't know why.
But I believe that this will become better :)
Ah Sam just like usual.
Talk everything and do everything.

I'm good with friends.
Just like usual friend :)
I won't care much of what they think of me like last time.
Care until I can't meet their eyes.
Can't talk like me.

I thought about my LI before.
I am worried about it.
I have no destination to go and afraid of what awaiting me.
I don't know what should I do to get an internship.
I don't know where should I apply.
I am not expecting but worrying of it.
I need more confidence.
I'm not good enough to go further :(
In deep of my heart I know it's just an easy thing to do.
Just search for a company and apply.
If they ask for interview just go and if not just do it.
But I kept think of the hard part and ignore the easy part of it :(
Still got few months to go.
The more important thing I have to deal with myself is MUET.
I'm not good enough to get band 4 and not confident enough to get at least band 3.
Fighting!

My tablet is still under progress :(
Wonder when will I know whether it is fixable or not.
Shit.

I bought a dress for CNY :)
Something I would never do before.
I bought 3 T-shirts and tried to find for a green shorts but :(

Okay. That's all? :P