想要好好地哭一场，
却找不到个理由哭。
Sunday, 23 December 2012
22.12.12
Another day without aunty.
No one says that one cannot live without someone.
I went to Aeon with KA YH and Wee.
Okay. I admitted that I thought it would be a group when i agreed to go.
But it just ends up with 4.
It's okay too. Nothing bad happen.
Just that I was headache and my leg pain after the movie.
I went to play badminton with them the day before.
So leg's muscle pain. While for the headache, it just happens.
Have an early sleep at 9. =)
Head pain. Eye pain. Hand pain. Leg pain.
What a pain day.
No one says that one cannot live without someone.
I went to Aeon with KA YH and Wee.
Okay. I admitted that I thought it would be a group when i agreed to go.
But it just ends up with 4.
It's okay too. Nothing bad happen.
Just that I was headache and my leg pain after the movie.
I went to play badminton with them the day before.
So leg's muscle pain. While for the headache, it just happens.
Have an early sleep at 9. =)
Head pain. Eye pain. Hand pain. Leg pain.
What a pain day.
Friday, 21 December 2012
20.12.2012
The end of the world is spreading everywhere.
But we are sill alive on 21.12.2012.
Aunty went to camp after electronic class.
Lalat fetch her go central but she forgot to bring her purse.
She had to come back and take.
I had programming and TITAS class without aunty.
Programming was fun!
We learnt new things and the other friends make me feel that i'm not alone :)
While for TITAS it just as usual.
Just didn't feel safe without aunty sitting beside me.
Okay. I am becoming better =)
But we are sill alive on 21.12.2012.
Aunty went to camp after electronic class.
Lalat fetch her go central but she forgot to bring her purse.
She had to come back and take.
I had programming and TITAS class without aunty.
Programming was fun!
We learnt new things and the other friends make me feel that i'm not alone :)
While for TITAS it just as usual.
Just didn't feel safe without aunty sitting beside me.
Okay. I am becoming better =)
Tuesday, 18 December 2012
To: Ah Sam.
I choose to hate you at first.
But then aunty ask me to forgive you.
First, you can talk 4 hours phone with ZA but you can't reply me one message.
I was suffering that time.
So your not replying me message become a serious case.
Then, I told you I have to back hostel alone because aunty is going to central.
But you still choose to stay with ZA to do assignment. You claimed.
Okay. Do assignment is more important.
But after you came back hostel you didn't ask anything about me.
You know i hate and scare to be alone.
I message you that night. You didn't reply again.
Fine.
Did you forgot I ever tell you that don't change you mind because of us?
You don't really want to go for the "岁末祝福".
You give me excuse that you want to wash clothes when I ask you at the first time.
Well then I say wash clothes need use one day time?
You answer nothing.
Aunty didn't know I asked you about the 岁末祝福 and ask you again.
You hesitated and give a positive answer.
You were going.
After we went back to room. You message aunty.
You don't want to go because you are tired and don't feel like going.
You could just refuse us at the first moment.
We don't really mind whether you are going or not.
We are just asking. But it is sure that we hope you are going.
But then aunty ask me to forgive you.
First, you can talk 4 hours phone with ZA but you can't reply me one message.
I was suffering that time.
So your not replying me message become a serious case.
Then, I told you I have to back hostel alone because aunty is going to central.
But you still choose to stay with ZA to do assignment. You claimed.
Okay. Do assignment is more important.
But after you came back hostel you didn't ask anything about me.
You know i hate and scare to be alone.
I message you that night. You didn't reply again.
Fine.
Did you forgot I ever tell you that don't change you mind because of us?
You don't really want to go for the "岁末祝福".
You give me excuse that you want to wash clothes when I ask you at the first time.
Well then I say wash clothes need use one day time?
You answer nothing.
Aunty didn't know I asked you about the 岁末祝福 and ask you again.
You hesitated and give a positive answer.
You were going.
After we went back to room. You message aunty.
You don't want to go because you are tired and don't feel like going.
You could just refuse us at the first moment.
We don't really mind whether you are going or not.
We are just asking. But it is sure that we hope you are going.
Sunday, 16 December 2012
The forth week.
Be a happy person.
That's what we should apply in life.
But how many people can done that?
The memory still fresh.
But memory is still a memory.
It can't be repeated but created.
Appreciate is the only thing we can do.
I have to say that : Time passed.
Dam Dam Dam Fast!
Still remember how did I step into UTeM with nervous feeling.
Can't imagine my Uni life.
Feel scare for everything.
Hoping to have a great life.
Wanting to adapt the environment.
All of those feeling just gone.
I adapt to my new life.
I am having a great life.
If I am not mistaken.
14 weeks first semester passed.
4 weeks second semester passed.
What else?
3 years diploma passed and gonna have to bye bye to friends here?
It would be 'Oh my.. I can't imagine how..'
That's life isn't it.
天下无不散之筵席，
有聚必有散。
Week 2 Sem 2
The relationship between us become better already :)
I'm still trying to be a better me.
The class is not hard for me yet.
That's all =)
I'm still trying to be a better me.
The class is not hard for me yet.
That's all =)
Today. 241112
Kind of fight with ah sam.
She told me I can't see the message for so many times.
But why I ignore it and look at it?
She straight away take away the phone after she feels that I'm looking at the message.
And told me ''I already say you cannot see.''
I make a joke then but she didn't respond to it.
She is angry.
Then I think everything and come out with a smile on my face.
For half an hour.
I talk nothing and didn't join their talk.
After ah sam go back to her room I started to clean up my mind.
Then I'm back.
A conclusion in my mind.
女生的友谊很脆弱，一件事就可以搞砸。
我是女生。
所以我不要搞砸，我回来了。
She told me I can't see the message for so many times.
But why I ignore it and look at it?
She straight away take away the phone after she feels that I'm looking at the message.
And told me ''I already say you cannot see.''
I make a joke then but she didn't respond to it.
She is angry.
Then I think everything and come out with a smile on my face.
For half an hour.
I talk nothing and didn't join their talk.
After ah sam go back to her room I started to clean up my mind.
Then I'm back.
A conclusion in my mind.
女生的友谊很脆弱，一件事就可以搞砸。
我是女生。
所以我不要搞砸，我回来了。
25 Nov 2012
It's sem 2 already. I'm 18 and I have to accept the reality.
Both aunty and ah sam gift me cup as birthday present.
But ah sam give me an apple box of star too :)
And aunty draw me a rabbit :D
Also gift me FooFoo.
I am happy. Yea :D
I get to eat cake this year. Mummy bought me an ice cream chocolate cake after I keep asking for it.
I like the new room arrangement.
It doesn't make the room looks smaller like last sem.
I like most of the lecturer.
The only thing I need to face my sem 2 is confident.
I have to be brave to expose myself and my willing to learn.
I want to get at least 3.9 for this sem.
The relationship between my course mate seem like changes.
Become not so good already..Is it because I always avoid from sitting with them and at last aunty tolerate with me make us have less chance to talk?
Hope not..
But why are they not informing us for anything already?
We didn't come in class they ask nothing.
The meeting cancel they didn't tell us.
They go watch movie didn't ask us.
I don't like this.. Feel like we are not in a tem..
I can be an outsider but not aunty..
Both aunty and ah sam gift me cup as birthday present.
But ah sam give me an apple box of star too :)
And aunty draw me a rabbit :D
Also gift me FooFoo.
I am happy. Yea :D
I get to eat cake this year. Mummy bought me an ice cream chocolate cake after I keep asking for it.
I like the new room arrangement.
It doesn't make the room looks smaller like last sem.
I like most of the lecturer.
The only thing I need to face my sem 2 is confident.
I have to be brave to expose myself and my willing to learn.
I want to get at least 3.9 for this sem.
The relationship between my course mate seem like changes.
Become not so good already..Is it because I always avoid from sitting with them and at last aunty tolerate with me make us have less chance to talk?
Hope not..
But why are they not informing us for anything already?
We didn't come in class they ask nothing.
The meeting cancel they didn't tell us.
They go watch movie didn't ask us.
I don't like this.. Feel like we are not in a tem..
I can be an outsider but not aunty..
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